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| I haven't written in here since Summer began! Oh man, obviously I was pretty occupied in the Summer. All I have to say is, this Summer made my life. I started dating the sweetest guy ever, that I met back in February.. and ever since then.. Summer was ours <3 Beach all day, pho all day.. could that get any better or what? Haha. And now Summer is over, boo =(
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As of now, my life has been so great lately. Although I did end my job at Haagen Dazs and money isn't really coming in so much because I haven't had time to do many shoots and I have turned down a lot of them, life is still at its best for me. I have the best boyfriend in the world and I really couldn't ask for much more. It's been about 5months now and nothing could get any better. I know that this is just the beginning and yadda yadda, but hey, I know that it's great so far and as long as we're both willing to keep us sane, then it will be. It's my birthday on Friday and I'm pretty much looking forward to it =) my baby has a speech for me, oh how exciting! Hehe, can't wait to see what it's all about. | | |
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Love or Infatuation:
Infatuation is instant desire, it is one set of glands calling to another. Love is a friendship that has caught fire, it takes root and grows one day at a time. Infatuation is marked by a feeling of insecurity, you are excited and eager, but not genuinely happy; There are nagging doubts and unanswered questions. Love is understanding and the mature acceptance of imperfection; IT IS REAL. It gives you strength and grows beyond you, to bolster your beloved; You are warmed by his presence, even when he is away. Near or far, you know he is yours and you can wait. Infatuation lacks confidence; When he's away, you wonder if he's cheating. Sometimes you check. Love means trust. You are calm, secure and unthreatened; He feels that trust, and it makes him even more trustworthy. Infatuation might lead you to do things you'll regret later, but love never will. Love is an upper; It makes you look up, it makes you think up, it makes you a better person than you were before.
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I haven't written in here since I was 15.
Well, I think right now is a good time to start catching up (:
As far as I know, not much has been going on in my life. I had my first fashion show on Saturday and I was so nervous, but it was exciting and accomplished something that I know I've always wanted to do! (: The whole dressing up, walking, pictures, posing, wearing a lot of make-up, fake eyelashes, extensions! It was pretty exciting! I loved it, and aside from all the things you have to not be afraid of, I can't wait for future casting calls and getting my photos finished with!
Before the middle of June, I was going through a lot of stress. My job, school, relationships. A lot of things were pulling me down and I honestly had no positive outlook on anything in life anymore. I was in that old stage of Jaclyn where I frankly didn't care about anything or anyone else besides what I wanted. I went through a recent break-up that was killing me inside and out and I felt like my heart was going to take forever to heal because nothing has ever felt more worse than feeling unloved and unappreciated - 1year down the drain. But from past experiences in any situation that has to do with heartache, I've learned that hearts heal with the help of other's (: I had my girls that were talking to me, my mother, Randolph Permejo and Justin Carrillo. Believe it or not, those two guys have really helped me a lot in helping my heart get better, not only were they there to talk to me, They're one of the many guys that let's me know that I do not deserve to be mistreated in any way possible. And it's true; NO GIRL deserves to feel unappreciated. If anything, I'm growing from the lessons that I've learned myself and the lessons that have been taught to me. Change for the better is all I've been saying, but now, it's all that I'll be doing.
God has given me a handful and I'm taking it all in with a lot of thanks <3 If there's anyone that's keeping me sane through everything that I've been through, it's God. I couldn't be anymore grateful.
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I have started to realize many things, but mainly about life and how valuable it is. I never really understood the many complexities of it throughout the 15 years I`ve been in experience. However, I came to the fact that life is really precious -- cherish everything you have and dont have. Be thankful for who you are and who you`re not.
I realized that life`s too short to let little things get in the way of your relationships with people. Don`t turn little arguments into big things that jeopardizes your relationship with others -- learn to forgive and forget. Don`t let something so small and stupid ruin wonderful friendships cause you`ll slowly realize that those people are the ones who mean the most to you. tell people how you feel about them before its too late. Never leave angry -- solve your problems and learn from your faults. the faster you get things resolved, the sooner you`ll be happy. Most importantly, live every day like its your last because you never know when it`ll come.
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